i just dun understand why im so patient wit guys .. especially wit tis on e particular guy .. sumtimes his words really stab my heart so hard ... but i dunnoe why i can still lingering wit him ... i just feel tat i wanna get rid of him forever but its really really hard .. and why the fuck should i still love him !!! im even not sure if he had tat feeling for me . but tru his actions , he dun seem to .. why oh why !! it hurts to be tis way ... wad had i done to deserve all tis ? being good to people , people took advantage of me ... i trust people , people treat me tis way ... i guess i should change myself . i should be more firm , and not trusting anyone but myself .. i dun give a fucking care if people wanna hate me after i had changed ..
haisss .. had to express tis out here cos i had no one to talk to rite now .. aisyah slept already .. i cant stop crying while expressing tis out .. im such a cry baby .. i noe .. i just cant stand it ...
